"Mom, you're freaking me out here," Bella looked at her mother thinking somehow things were reversed. Well, sort of. Was she really telling her the truth?
"I just knew, I knew ...knew it would be cancer because I've heard people say that. How it can happen... Or you know, Oh, you finally hit menopause. Just what you've been waiting for. God, I dunno what to do." She was crying and pacing about in the livingroom.
"Mom, you'll be fine. I know you will. You're one of the strongest people I know. You really are. I think what you went through with Dad. And us. You can get through this too." Her Mom gave her a hug then. It was so awkward. Bella never thought she'd be standing here doing this with her mother of all things.
Her mother couldn't say anything, but cry more as they hugged. So they stayed that way until Gib cried for her, and she had to go and see what he was up too with all the pots and pans in the kitchen. She had to watch him like a hawk, lately.
"See, you don't have this to put up with every second of the day," Bella said as she went to make sure nothing was in his mouth. "He wants to stay outside all the time. Nap time can't come soon enough."
"Parker is just beside himself," she sniffed. "He would have to be there when the doctor talked to me. Us. God." She shook her head. "All this premenopausal crap. God, all my friends not having a period like zero and me, I felt like I was having more of them, you know, even though they kept telling me I wasn't and now this is just perfectly fine. I'm perfectly fine." She sounded as if they'd been wrong.
"Well, I know Parker is far more supportive than Dad ever way. You'll probably have the best time of your life. You know that. The best." Bella remained upbeat, but she knew her Mom was really sad at the thought of having a baby she would never probably watch grow up to see him or her start a family of their own.
"I guess." She sat down and hugged herself. "I remember when you got pregnant with Jane, I thought I might be pregnant too. Until my period came. Oh, I'd had this dream though, that in fact I was going to carry her for nine months for you because I didn't want you to have to go through the pain of child birth." Her mother looked up at her.
"Look at me now," Bella smiled. "I loved child birth so much I'm on my third one." Of course, she was already for a scheduled surgery in late October to have the baby.
Bella looked at her mother's face. She was trying to imagine the whole child birth process. Bella laughed. She'd forgot. Hadn't she?